It's hard to talk about someone I hardly know
I just want to go back to the same things I always go back to
I'm to the point of disbelief that I even question what I see
Second guessing what's right in front of me
I can look at my best friends
And I can see the hope
The strength, it's real
Leaving me wondering when all that died in me
The same passion is there
But it's in an opposite vein
I tried to feel that optimism
But who the fuck am I kidding?
I've lost so much fucking time to all the lingering
Too busy hiding from
Hinding from the man I'm becoming
Can't bear this fucking weight
It's much too heavy to take
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I don't know what's heavier
The cloud in my head
Or the weight on my shoulders
The fucking weight on my shoulders
I don't see shit in myself
But if you say you see something
I fucking swear I'll keep trying
I'll fucking try 'til I'm dying
That's why I cover all my skin
'Cause I'm not happy with the person within
I use the ink to remind me that forever exists
