Letra de Bad Spanish

I keep my mouth shut 'cause I don't deserve anything
Feeling like a fraud at my job 'cause I faked my way
Into every good thing that's every happened to me
Write a happy song 'cause I don't wanna mope today
Try to sing along but the thoughts they don't go away
I will say the worst things to make you stay
It's hard to ask for help if you don't really want it
Passed out on the train in your own vomit
It's fine, I said
I'll bash my fucking head through the wall
So I don't have to call
You before I go to bed
Alright, I said
Won't hold my fucking breath while you're gone
But I feel it in my lungs
Before I go to bed
Dreaming in bad Spanish about your romantic tendencies
And how they would translate in your fucked up fantasies
You're the only good thing that's ever happened to me
It's hard to ask for help if you don't really want it
Passed out on the train in your own vomit
It's fine, I said
I'll bash my fucking head through the wall
So I don't have to call
You before I go to bed
Alright, I said
I'll scrape my knuckles red
Stucco wall
Do I have to be sad to get off?
Oh, I'll never leave my head