[Verse 1]
Nervous feelings of a panic coming on
As I sit in Saratoga all night long
Dirty fingertips smell of cigarette smoke
As I look back on what just happened
Pass your stop and I choke
[Verse 2]
Stumble inside
Wait 'til everyone falls asleep then I cry
Wake up in the morning, find a safe place to hide
When your smell is still in my bed
[Chorus 1]
Just try to stay occupied
But every time I try it's like my synapses are burnt out and fried
In a stagnant monotone
Say "I can't do this on my own"
[Verse 3]
Put everything under a microscope
Smoke too much dope and lose hope
Like that's perfectly fine way to cope
As I lie to myself, ripped up a million pieces back on the shelf
[Verse 4]
Lay on my back
Take another sip until I cough up and hack
All the ugly things I thought I stuffed in a sack
Like lies and crashing waves, I know it's all coming back
[Chorus 2]
But I will stay occupied
And hopefully when I try it's like my synapses aren't burnt out and fried
In a stagnant monotone
Say "I can't do this on my own"
With every single weakness shown
No, I can't do this on my own
[Outro]
Oh my god
Up late and it won't shut off
Oh my god
'Cause it's never enough